The past few weeks I have woken up in a tent, hiked a snowy mountain pass, and spoken in front of a live audience for the first time in over a year.
The evoked emotion that all these experiences have in common is one of feeling truly alive.
The past year has been a very weird one for everyone on this planet.
For me, the weirdest part has been the act of shutting down, locking myself away, being dormant in terms of living life to the fullest.
2019 was one of the most extraordinary years of my life. I took a huge risk starting my business, I poured my heart out on stage in front of 2500 people, and I became a more actualized version of myself.
But all the growth that happened in 2019 was somehow rescinded by mid-2020. By the end of last year I had almost forgotten who I was, and where I was going.
Even this blog had gone dormant, with my last post being over six months ago.
Honestly, the reason for the silence was because I had very little to write about. I didn’t want to complain about how boring life had become, because I knew my problems were far less pressing than those being faced by many others around the world.
But in the month of March this year, something shifted. I decide to stop waiting for life to get back to ‘normal’. Despite the world still being shut down, I started to make plans again. I started to take risks in my business again. I started to branch out and build real-life friendships with new people.
The result was that April and May have been two of the most exhilarating months of my life in recent memory. In the past two weeks I have done and seen more than I did in perhaps the previous six months.
Probably due the fact I’ve felt so stifled I suddenly feel an immense joy for life. Every recent experience is magical and memorable, and my relationships feel so much richer.
And along with the love of new experiences, has come a renewed vigor in my ambitions. This past year I have been getting by, but not growing in my professional life. Suddenly, I have a whole list of new ambitions and dreams that I want to make reality.
To grow my business to a higher level, to share my ideas via my YouTube channel. To improve my health dramatically and to meet more actualized people.
Life is full of ebb and flow. Of dormancy and reemergence.
I know that for me, the time has come to return to life.
No more waiting for the world to get better, I’m just taking action on my terms, with the people that wanna join the journey.
Life isn’t always exciting, but we have the choice to be excited about it anyhow. We can find ways to grow, develop, and refresh ourselves even amidst oppressive circumstances.
To the people who have helped me come back to life recently, I am incredibly grateful.
And to the part of me that stopped waiting for permission to live fully, I promise that I will listen to you – and only you – from here on onwards.
We’ve all spent so much time hiding and waiting.
Now it’s time to come back to life.